Wednesday, December 2, 2015

December 1st, 2015.

No matter how I knew that it wasn't meant to be; that I was so much better off without you, I never got you out of my heart.
I still felt a hole in my chest.
It was a monstrous being that sucked the life out of me and left me bore open and heavily weighed down by emptiness.
I used to think one person could never love another forever, but you my sweet selfish Destroyer, you are proving me wrong.
Months later, 1000 empty days later, too much dignity lost later, and you still creep in everyday.
All I ever asked was for your love, but even the small bits you gifted me were never enough.
Let me be the one you will always regret losing.
Let me be the one you hate yourself for not being ready for.
Let me be anything of meaning.
Otherwise, I am just a sad girl who will never let go of something that was never holding on in the first place.